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Thursday, January 15, 2009

Motivation Needed

From left to right, I see my history homework, maths homework and other stuff best not said here, and no matter how hard I try, I can never get my hand to move towards the pencil box, take out my pen and start working on them. It's kinda obvious what it is, though most of you would call it laziness. I guess that's one way to put it, but in my opinion, the problem is...

Lack of motivation.

Yeah, lack of motivation. The problem is i don't have enough motivation to get my ass up and start moving forward. Yeah, I'm that kind of guy, where I often need something, or someone, to do things for. I never seem to be able to do things if it's for myself. I really need to learn how to be a little bit more selfish. Sigh.

And nowadays, I'm starting to feel as if I'm getting left behind while the world keeps on moving forward. Like days are passing by, and I'm still living the week before. Lack of sleep? Maybe. Makes me hate having insomnia. Or maybe it's something else? Maybe cause I'm finding lesser and lesser people to consider friends? Lesser and lesser people that I'm sure I can trust, and I am willing to confide with.

And the main problem still stands.

I still lack motivation to do anything, and catch up with the rest of the world. And I can't seem to be able to find one. I just hope I'm gonna be able to find one soon, before O levels become just right around the corner. Now, that would suck.

Where can I find motivation?
What is it?
Or who is it?

Meh... One way to find out, eh?

I'll try to get one back tomorrow. One that I know would definitely start me going forward.

dancethenightaway
9:45 PM

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